MY LOVE STORY

I'm here just wanna share my freak story. Sorry and please don't be bored on it.

This might be a bit ridiculous, to tell the unimportant things, especially about love to all of you.
but I hope you can understand. Let start now.

This time I'll tell you about a 'love' and feeling. Dunno why, my feeling now is very chaotic. maybe you know the meaning of a 'dilemma', yes I really was a dilemma. 

This story began when I was still in high school. I've love with my senior, her name is Ayu. like her name 'AYU', which in Bahasa Indonesia is 'beautiful'. She is a pretty girl, kind, and very spoiled. 

an event that isn't intentionally, make us know each other, love each other, and in the end we establish a special relationship :).

The first time I knew her at the sports complex area.

oh yeah, before it,  I have first to know my senior (ayu's friend), her name is Tammy. At first I had made an appointment to meet with Tammy, we texted each other to determine where we met.

THEN what makes you be acquainted with Ayu?.
yups, so when I send an sms to Tammy, Tammy has run out of pulses. therefore, Tammy has borrowed ayu's mobile to reply my sms. 

well, of ignorance and inadvertence that makes me curious about the unknown number that goes into my inbox. love story began:).
every night, Ayu always  send me sms. And every night the same way I was replying sms from her. we are acquainted, we are talking about hobbies, lessons. and finally after a week we knew each other, we agreed to meet at the school cafeteria.
and you know when it's what I feel? I panicked and so so so nervoussss !!!.

yeah, so we met...... I can't say anything when I was in front of her. and you know what first she said on me? "You are very sweet boy, but why are you so quiet, unlike what I knew you when we talked on mobile". and I just said "thank you, you're very kind.". oh shittt This is so fuckin disgusting, I just can say that !. 2 weeks after that, I will confidently take her for dating. we ate, we watched, and many things I do with her.
and you know? I shot her to be my girlfriend, and asked her to establish a special relationship. waouuwww I was so brave and feel gantlemen. and Ayu willing to accept to be my girlfriend. We finally establish a special relationship, almost every day we met in the school cafeteria. ayu's many friends are always teasing me, because I was so brave to establish a special relationship with a senior. But I dont care, for me I just love ayu. every day of my relationship with Ayu getting happy, I feel comfortable in her side. Ayu is so valuable in my life.
But all that changed when we stepped relationship to six months. Many of my friends and Ayu's friend told me, that they saw she was dating a college guy at the mall. At first I couldn't believe it, cause I'm sure Ayu just loves me, and like my principles, for me in a relationship, the most important thing is trust. everything is revealed when one day I borrowed Ayu's phone. And you know what I get? I read a lot of sms in her inbox. Many words of tenderness in her inbox with a college guy. I asked for an explanation and honesty of Ayu, with tears and full of forgiveness she was telling the truth to me, that in fact she also has another boyfriend. I'm sad, I feel betrayed. At night, I could not bring myself to ask her to terminate our relationship, via phone. I'm still sad and disappointed even though she's constantly apologizing to me, but I can only say "forget me, come back to him, he's better than me, hopefully you're happy, I LOVE YOU:)".

3 months passed, after our relationship broke up. Me and Ayu in a relationship again, she decided to end the relationship with her ​​boyfriend, and she asked me to re-establish a relationship with her, I think she may have realized. 

but apparently it's fuckin wrong, I was again on the betrayed. at the time I visited her  house unexpectedly, my intention to give a surprise to her. I visited Ayu's home along with my friends. And you know what? in her house there is ayu's new boyfriend. It was painful. and finally we broke up again.!

to be continued....